Captivated

First blog ever:
***God given verse for my upcoming life!***
>>2 Timothy 2:21-22<<<
"Therefore, if anyone cleanses himself from these things, he will be a vessel for honor, sanctified, useful to the Master, prepared for every good work. Now flee from youthful lusts and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, with those who call on the Lord from a pure heart."

Captivated = filled with wonder and delight

This word has been coming to mind constantly in the past few weeks and I think there are a few different reasons.
--> #1 I have been overwhelmed by God's blessing and favor and presence in the past season of my life. The Lord has prepared me, strengthened me, embraced me, taught me, and most importantly DRAWN me unto Himself to hunger and thirst for righteousness. I want to and am ready to be useful to the Master - His vessel, ready in and out of season to do every good work! And how amazing that I am joining a church family that DOES call on the Lord from a pure heart! I can't even begin to tell of the blessing that I feel already from The City Church...I don't think i'll ever leave unless the Lord calls me elsewhere<3

--> #2 Captivated is the only word that comes to mind when thinking of the guy...the whole idea of our relationship...its not overwhelming, its not consuming, nor is it insignificant....its simply captivating in a curious way. Captivating that I can feel God through his friendship...captivating that I can see such a future with him, and for the first time in my life that thought brings no worry, no fear, and no anxiety.

So my question is....
if this relationship was not from the Lord,
how could I feel both captivated by
Him
and captivated by
him
????

Lord, above all else, give me YOURSELF. Show me your ways and guide me in your truth. Allow me to become a woman after Your own heart. Give me understanding and wisdom as I pursue you with everything I have and all that I am. God, I give You my heart now, do not relent until you have it all. I surrender my desires and hopes at the foot of the cross knowing that it is You alone that can create the masterpiece out of my life. I seek nothing but You, I want all that You can give me. Just as Abraham said, "My Lord, if now I have found favor in your sight, please do not pass your servant by". Don't pass me by God. Sit with me. Rest with me. DWELL with me. Embrace me
...And lead me on the path to everlasting life with YOU<3